So I have my first job, working for Xavier Studios, writing sales brochures to see if there are any potential leads in the Arlington area.
I have been looking at the ideas Daniel gave me. It is very difficult for me to write the concepts out clearly. I am putting all my effort into it. I’m hoping if I just relax maybe I can memorize, absorb and digest it not word by word, but point by point.
Looking forward nervously to my first feedback. We are going over my work next week. Should be interesting.
Freelancing is a little like making a baby. It is challenging, you have to time it right and you never know if it came out right until you see that strip that says blue. You have to test and test again to get it just right.
I have been freelance writing on and off from 2006, when I started when I was staying at my grandmother’s house. I just started applying for jobs online and enjoyed the tiny bit of cash it provided. Mostly, I did copy and SEO. I learned some of the tricks of the trade.
Actually at one point, I decided it wasn’t for me, probably when I got a job and then went back to school. Then this year, 2012, I changed my mind again and decided I’d give it another go. I wasn’t going to school and I didn’t have a job. I decided to consider it and looked at some writing jobs and wanted to go ahead with it. The past couple of days, I’ve been talking to several clients and it’s been a whirlwind, fun, up-and-down roller coaster. I also applied online at several websites, but no. It isn’t the right time and I can tell. There is this feeling of emptiness, like I have nothing to bring to the table.
I do like writing. It is a good experience to have a finished piece and to feel like you have accomplished making something coherent and, in all possibility, wonderful. I like working independently with clients to get their needs fulfilled. People are a mystery and that is what is so attractive about them. I’m definitely interested in working more with clients in the future, but just not at this time.
I am not cut out for freelance writing. It’s an unusual pattern, one laced with secrecy and disappointment. No one I know really is except Paul E., a successful freelance writer friend. There is this mystery and strength that I think writers must have that I don’t have. A balance between the seen and the unseen, which I don’t understand. A combination of labor of the head, heart, and hand, which may not be my forte. I feel like controlling my work. I haven’t yet gotten to my work controlling me. Maybe I haven’t gotten used to the feeling of rejection, which is entwined with every aspect of writing.
I haven’t gotten an acceptance note yet from my proposal, meaning something about me and about the people I have proposed to on Elance. I am green, inexperienced and just a plain newb. This could also be because I just put up my proposal a couple of seconds ago. Meaning I’m a little over-anxious about my proposals (ha ha) and also that I expect instant results. Expecting instant results is a classic newb mistake. But really this is their fault for not responding right way, not mine at all.
This is for the resume writing jobs on Elance.com that haven’t written me yet. I don’t have a lot of experience and I said as much. I can’t wait until I know whether they are going to accept my proposal or not. I had the idea that I should message the other proposing writers to see if I could join their companies. They are very wary of choosing writers who are inexperienced. This proves that I’m competent enough for the job since I’m always looking for the best opportunity to take which translates into the best writing which I could take.
I’ll just wait until one of them emails me before applying to more jobs. I give it a weekend before I start moving on to looking at other jobs in other places. That is all that I can give.